Saturday, 21 June 2014

Open letter

Hello, my future wife.

Whether you are reading this before you meet me, or stumble upon it after, I want you to know a few things.
The reason I am writing this today is because I can’t stop thinking about you, and I can’t stop myself from imagining how happy we will be. Let this letter be a promise to you that I will do my best to be the man I want to be for you.
I may not yet know all of the difficulties that come with a lifetime commitment, but I have enough relationship experience to know what I want and how I picture my life with the person I will commit to: you.
Those around me are a continuous source of education and inspiration on how I want our relationship to be. So here and today, I vow to try my best to do the following:
I promise to do my best to make you beam daily, so count on many surprises. Your smile will be my priority. I get weak knees when anybody smiles, so just imagine the effort I will make to be the source of yours.
I promise I will always look at you with the same adoration as I did the moment I realized I loved you.
I promise to try to ignite the same sparkle in your eyes I see when you’re surprised, inspired, motivated or when you are about to lean in to kiss me.
I promise to hold your hand when we’re 80 years old with the same liveliness that I did when I crossed that line to hold yours for the first time. I vow never to let the excitement of dating me die down; I will surprise you with the location, the reason or the activity itself.
I promise to keep you guessing where we’re going next.  I promise to do my best always to interest you. I will keep reinventing myself, gaining new hobbies, new knowledge and new interests to keep you — and myself — entertained.
I promise to have new stories to share with you, and maybe I’ll retell the best ones again if you insist. Our friendship will continue to grow over the years.
I vow to challenge you to challenge yourself for the better; to make you think differently. I promise to try to feed off of your illuminating energy that will inspire me to do the same with myself. I will do my best to ensure that being bored never crosses your mind.
Even in grief and darkness, I promise to show you the different shades of the dark, and to help you find the tiny rays of light that are always there if you seek them. After all, there’s always worse than worst and better than best; everything is relative.
I promise to kiss you throughout our life together, with the same passion I had the first time I felt my lips on yours. When we kiss, I want it to slow down time — just you and me engulfed in our feelings.
I promise to play the games you like to play.
I promise to do my best to remain physically attractive for you, and I will do my best to be healthy in order to keep up with our children and grandchildren; someone has got to teach them Muay Thai kickboxing. I’ll train you, too; I want you to know how to fight and defend yourself, just don’t use it against me.
I promise to help you to be healthy, both physically and mentally. I will cook and clean for us. Expect the best breakfast: traditional Armenian tomato and pepper omelets, followed by fruit salad with… well, I can’t give all the secrets out.
I promise to strive to be a role model for our children. I want both you and them to see me as a source of motivation. I want to inspire them in the same way that my father inspires me.
I promise to do my best to love your family as you love them and to be by their side as much as I am by yours.
I promise to always listen to you when you simply just want to be heard; when you want someone to vent to about something or when you want advice.
I will listen to you especially when you don’t feel comfortable sharing your thoughts with anybody else, and to the things you try to tell me when you’re not even speaking. I promise to always listen.
During our life together, I promise to make sure that you feel as though you are the center of the household — I know you will be — and I will always try to show my appreciation for you because of that. Being the man of the house is nothing without a woman.
I promise never to let my guard down in taking care of us. I know you won’t be one to be satisfied with the bare minimum.
I promise to do everything that I can for you without taking away from your independence physically, intellectually or emotionally.
I promise to create family traditions and to make sure that your legacy lives forever through our children.
I promise to encapsulate the moment when I realize that I am in the most magnetic, amorous and erotic love with you, not to let that feeling dissipate to the best of my ability and to relive it with you constantly, always.

Sincerely, Your Future Husband

Wednesday, 18 June 2014

The dream catcher

For the past few weeks i've been having disturbing nightmares.Infact it's been so bad I would literally wake up sweating. In aid of helping, on my shopping trip yesterday I thought it would be a great idea to buy a Dream Catcher.
Blue because they didnt have purple
 Dream catchers are one of the most fascinating traditions of Native Americans. The traditional dream catcher was intended to protect the sleeping individual from negative dreams, while letting positive dreams through. The positive dreams would slip through the hole in the center of the dream catcher, and glide down the feathers to the sleeping person below. The negative dreams would get caught up in the web, and expire when the first rays of the sun struck them. 

Im not usually a superstitious person. I'm the type of person that would laugh at my mother for the weird things she does and believes. Yet here I was buying an object with the hopes of helping me sleep better. (Kind of hypocritical, I know). Well I had nothing to lose. Also being a Vampire Diaries and Originals fan, I knew I had to have one. I stood in the store trying to decide which one I liked and it was a really difficult decision. What to I look for? Why are there so many colors to choose from? And does bigger mean more effective? To my surprise, the cashier said she couldn't put the the dream catcher in a plastic for me as I apparently needed to carry it myself. I didn't get it but I carried it anyway. When I got home I could hardly wait to put it up. I came across a site that said I had to talk to it, treat it as a friend and tell it exactly what you wanted to achieve. I did, like a crazy person and went to sleep with some peace of mind. More psychological than anything else I would say. Kind of like the security you have  when you have blankets covering you so monsters wont attack.


Unfortunately, it didnt work. I still found myself up at 2.45am. Highly pissed at myself for believing a dream catcher was the answer. Sigh. Maybe im doing something wrong, Im not really sure but on the plus side it definately makes my room a notch prettier.


Note: Apparently according to a source I need to burn an incense stick in my room and pray. And take all my pictures I have on my wall down. Sigh... really?