your exs new girl

S0 your ex has a new girl..


Its not supposed 2hurt much..But it does.you automatically feel your world come crashing down on you and you get a mini heart attack just thinking about it..The shock gets the better of you and you are  consumed by so much hurt..Anguish,pain,doubt,confusion..S0 many emotions you didn't know you could possibly feel simultaneously..
you start asking yourself pitiful questi0nz...Was i not good enough?Is she pretty?Is she prettier then me? Wat about her makes her better than me? you  start doubting..Doubting hm..His love 4u..Did he really love me?Wat about all the promises he made?Was this just a game? How cud he m0ve on just like that? and eventually you start doubting yourself...Maybe I didn't deserve him or..Maybe I'm nt gud enough.Pretty soon all the maybes you can think of gets thought .You start losing yourself..Trap yourself in a world of misery hoping that its a phase that'll pass. you  find that you start blaming things and people for whats happened..you stratagise about how you'd get him back...you ask yourself if u do want him back..If all the pain and suffering..and everything you've been through is worth it..you find the need to check his fb page..Read through all his old msgz..Cling 2thngs that you shared together..Be at places you had moments together..And clinging onto hope that maybe..Just maybe..Things would be the way they were...
Of all the good times youve shared..All the laughs and smiles..We choose to focus on the negative.What was wrong.why it would never have worked.What came between us..The arguments, The fighting.All In an attempt to help us 'heal'..What a l0ad of bull..

Clearly if you've agreed 2 any teeni tiny thing Ive just said you obviously really loved the guy..But theres no need to d0ubt hm..His love for u..Or yourself. The truth is he probably has a special place in his heart that'l alway be yours...But now.."Hes just not that into you.." so do yourslf a favor..Be happy for him.you know that you only want whats best for him..Be happy for yourself..Be a freak..G0 to a mall and dance in the middle of nowhere..G0 bungee jumping with a crazy ass friend(no..Not me!!!) and enjoy your life to the max.It's pointless having regrets now..We all make mistakes ..Its up to us to make them again or to learn from them..S00o0o..Instead of holding onto could've been..and beating yourself up about whats happened..Let g0...Put everything behind you..and look forward..to that bright future that's shining towards you..you deserve it..You are beautiful..You owe it to yourself to move on..

Then comes the  finale..Wat everyone always tells you..Theres plenty of fish in the sea..But cum0n now..Who wants to date a fish:)

s0o to all my fellow princesses..I hope you find your prince charming and that I ..Mad as I am..Made sense to you..

Yesterday's history
tomorrows a mystery..But today is a gift..That's why it's called the present..
(yes i did just quote Kungfu panda..But hey..You can learn a lot from it OK!! L0l don't h8)

spreading the love
-T-

Please find me lord

Yesterday as I stepped into the bus like I do everyday, I felt I just wasnt myself. Something or rather someone had really upset me. I was so confused about so many things. many of which is so difficult for me to even begin to explain.

I felt like id lost who i truly was..infact that very thought was going through my mind. I found myself looking out the huge window and saw the world move by. before i knew it, the bus had filled up completely. i found myself now sitting between 2 women. On my right was a young lady eagerly going to college and on my left was a woman in her late 30s looking as if she was ready to go do her monthly shopping. She smiled at me warmly. And like all smiles i always say  it was contagious.

The bus came to a halt to pick up yet another passenger. It was an old man. Scratching for coins as if his life depended on it. Our eyes met, But only for a split second  and then he gave me such a huge smile like I was a  relative he hadnt seen in years. No1 seemed to take note of this guy but something about him kept making me look at him. Worried that i was making him feel uncomfortable I continued looking out the window and allowing my thoughts to get the better of me.

I then glanced at this old man with his haggard tweed jacket and facial hair that needed a good cut. his eyes were so captivating and meaningful. A rich brown that i could see even from where i was sitting. He continued to stand...the whole bus trip long. and then he started walking towards us. myself and the 2 ladies I was siting between. He reached out to me and presented me with a blue card. for about 5 seconds I just sat there looking at this man and then i took it. Usually whenever someone gives me something I read it almost immediately. but it was only after about a minute that i looked at the card properly and opened it to read the contents inside.

It was a passage about how God will find you if you Lost child, go to Him for all the answers you seek. After reading the passage I looked up and my old man...no..my angel sent straight to me from heaven wasnt on the bus with us any longer.

I literally felt the hair on my arms get goosebumps.

My very 1st post

Ive been meaning to start my own blog for way too long. Ive got gazillions of pages scattered all over my room with happenings of things that id really like to share with the world.

It wasnt till recently that id decided to put all my thoughts to papers..well now to my keyboard and have everyone see the Beautiful world we live in as i do.

I dedicate this post to everyone reading it and to those who encouraged me to start this.